Look at that face!!!

OK, I probably shouldn't be blogging this late, with not all the sleep I would like to have since I may become emotional.

I see that picture and my first thought is where did my baby go?? He looks soooo grown-up....

My point of this was to document some funnies that have come out of his mouth the past couple days and some serious thoughts he has that amazes me..

Funnies first. The other day him and I ventured out to Macy's to look for a new mattress. Ours is a few years old and we really need to just get a new one. Well, we had the issue with Little Kitty last week and it seems when the cat didn't go potty where he should be going he went in my room. When my sister, Kelly, was here we took my mattress and box spring off the bed so I could make sure there wasn't any kitty pee under the bed. Of course Ethan saw what we were doing and when asked I told him we were checking for kitty pee. So, we are in Macy's, he is of course out of his stroller testing the beds for me and he decides he is going to tell this lady that "mommy needs a new mattress cause hers has a hole in it (which is doesn't) and kitty peed in it.." (which didn't happen either) The women looks at me with disgust of course and moves on.

Then today there was an older gentleman in our house working our water issues. He talked a little funny because he had some dental issues. Ethan looks at him, cocks his head to the side, points his finger at him and says "Your teeth fell out because you didn't take care of them" I quickly remove him from the room and try to tell him he can't say that. Of course he doesn't understand why.... But it was funny...

Now onto the heartbreaking comments. After Kelly and Sammy left he looked at me at one point and said "mommy everyone leaves me" of course I cry...

Then last night before bed he pulls me close and says "mommy, am I ever going to see my Daddy again?" Of course I reassure him and quickly exit the room to cry...

Today him and I were outside playing with chalk and a plane flew over and Ethan started jumping up and down screaming at the plane. He said Daddy fixed that plane. I agree and then he says "now that it's fixed Daddy is coming home" NO honey Daddy has a lot more planes to fix." Like a 106 days worth of planes to fix... (Not that I am counting or anything)

His reasoning amazes me, his vocabulary amazes me, and his thought process amazes me... Most importantly I am constantly amazed that he is my son....

Always a Light at the End of the Tunnel

It's been a very difficult 1st week with Ted being gone. Ethan just misses him more than I can say. His sleep is all messed up and throughout the day when he is quiet and thinking he starts to cry or act out because he misses his Daddy. Nothing more breaks your heart than watching your child hurt.

I have done my best though, keeping us busy. The TDY curse does continue. I had to take Little Kitty to the Vet the other day to find out he has a severe kidney infection. Probably the beginning of things to come, but hopefully for now he will be ok. Still dealing with Lily's issues. I can see everyday she limps more and sleeps more. I am just trying to enjoy quiet time with her when I have it...

My sister, Aunt Kiki, and her "boyfriend" Sammy came down for the weekend and did a great job at entertaining Ethan. Sammy did a great job helping me catch up on a few things and put together a gift for Ted.

We had major water issues in the house for a few days. The faucets in the shower wouldn't stop leaking. Not a dribble but one was on full force, sucking up all the hot water, so we went today with no hot water until 8:00pm tonight.

I am constantly reminding myself that everything could be much worse, so when I looked out my kitchen window this evening while making dinner I saw a beautiful rainbow. I snagged Ethan quick to take him outside. He first asked if it was real, then could he touch it, then what did it taste like and lastly could Daddy see it. I promised him Daddy would see it. So here it is. xoxo

120 Days and Counting

120 days, 16 weeks, 4 months..... (I sound like my favorite Rent song, Seasons of Love) And you know what??? We can't even start counting yet!!!! We can't start counting down days until the 18th... The 18th is like Day 1 or Day 120 how ever you look at it.

Today is like the longest day of my Life. Well, actually no March 8th 2006 was the longest day. But, anyways it a rainy cold yucky day and we are just hanging out waiting to hear from Ted. I talked to him about midnight last night before he was leaving the country and I don't expect to hear from him until the weekend.

Ethan really misses Daddy, we have talked about him ALL day.... I know it'll get easier as time goes by and as we get into a schedule, but today just really stinks!!!!!

TDY Curse

It seems in Military life there is such a thing as a TDY Curse. With the definition being "anything that could possibly go wrong while someone is deployed will go wrong"

You think, broken dryer (which I was completely ready for, with the new one Ted would never let me buy ALL picked out) the computer going nuts (fine again, the new MAC already picked out) But, I never excepted yesterday to happen 2 days before he has to leave.

We had to take Lily to the Vet since she has been limping for a few days now and it wasn't getting any better. Lily is not a big fan of the Vet, once you pull up she knows where she is and soon as she sees the Vet she shows her pearly whites. So we thought a good idea for Ted to take her just to make sure everything is ok. Mind you she is around 11 years old, so the thought of just some bone problems where in the back of my mind. Never in a million years did I think Ted was going to call me and tell me she has Bone Cancer. The Vet wants to see her back in a couple weeks to confirm for sure. I guess there is a very small itsy bitsy small chance that it's just osteoporosis. Neither one of us are counting on that.

So Ted leaves with 4 animals at home and comes back to 3. Again, never in a million years did I think I would be the one that would have to do this. Never did I think I would have to do this alone!!! Lily and Ted have that special connection. He is just heart broken and sick about it..

So I think by that already happening 2 days before he leaves, and putting quite the downer on our time together, and me having to take Lily to her last Vet Appt in a couple weeks, we should be exempt from the TDY Curse! I will even chant if I have to!!

A Time Machine??

Does anyone have a Time Machine? Can we fast forward about 16 weeks??? Ted leaves in 3 days and I just want it to be over. Not Ted leaving, but him being gone.

Someone very dear to me has a blog also, and said that she can write what she wants on it because it's HER blog and free therapy. So I have a feeling for the next few weeks, until we get into a new routine, I am going to be whining quite a bit on here.

I think Ethan is in a good place. I found this great book at B&N "When Daddy Travels" and Ted has been reading it to Ethan everyday. He keeps saying Daddy is going to the desert, it's very hot, lots of sand and lots of camels. I don't think he really understands Daddy is sleeping there, but we'll see.

9 Days and Counting

When I started this blog thing, I always said I wouldn't be one of those people that went weeks in between posting. Well, I am one of those people. I guess I have just been grumpy and sad lately. Ted went back to work this week so that means it's getting closer to him leaving. FOr the longest time I kept telling myself I was ok with it I just felt horrible for what Ethan was going to go through. I can understand where Ted is, what he is doing, I have a sense of time. Ethan on the other hand doesn't and it going to be confused. Well, it actually hit me that I am sad for me. I am going to miss him!!! I know it's just 4 months and I know it could be worse, but still... 4 months is 4 months!

We had tons of fun while Ted was off... Since going to the circus we have gone to the Aquarium, to see the Backyardigans Live Show and to Sesame Place. Of course Ethan loved everything!!!! I am glad we have lots planned for the summer to keep ourselves busy.